crazy is perfect, and fucked up is perfect, so why wasn't i perfect?

it's 3 am. i am tired.

things to dwell on (or not)

not everyone is fixable.
some people are incapable of vulnerability.
i am very capable and sometimes wish i wasn't.
next to normal has lyrics for every emotion.
they help me survive the summer.
my friends are my base and without them i would die.
i was never in your base, nor will i probably ever be.
when choosing between public or intimate affirmation:
i will always choose intimate.
you will always choose public.
i miss the way you smell.
i miss the way you laugh.
seeing you last weekend was harder than i thought.
i cried.
you didn't.
i might have picked up smoking because of you.


"give me pain if that's what's real, its the price we pay to feel. the price of love is loss, but still we pay, we love anyway."